Rochelle Wisoff-Fields: FIXING A WHOLE

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Authors Note: Twenty-three years ago, I fought the final round with Annie—Annie Wrecks Ya. At present, I’m working on a novel based on my experience. Thus far the working title is Last Dance with Annie, but I’m not married to it. 


By Rochelle Wisoff-Fields

The flashbacks started somewhere in my late thirties, upending my memories of a happy childhood. How could I have blocked out such things? Nothing made sense. I loathed the body that had betrayed me. My life spun out of control. 

It’s all about control, you know. 

Annie gave me control. No one, not my husband or even my doctor, could tell me what I could or couldn’t put in my mouth. I controlled my eating—until I didn’t. Annie did. 

Annie controlled my daily frenetic exercise. At the same time, I fantasized about onion rings and fried chicken. Of course, Annie would never allow me to eat them. She constantly reminded me numbers mattered. One hundred calories per meal. Twenty pink pills to purge it. The scale hovered between eighty-five and eighty-four. 

“You like my new jeans?” I asked my friend and coworker Linda. “I can’t believe they fit.” 

“What size?” Her ice-blue gaze met mine. 


“You’ll look nice in your child-size coffin.” 

Her comment almost became prophecy when my “dieting” caught up to me. After collapsing in a store, I was taken by ambulance to a nearby hospital with an eating-disorder unit. 

After two months of treatment and medical leave, I returned to work.

My size-zero jeans no longer zipped and they’d become tight around the hips and thighs. In fact, I’d outgrown my size two’s as well. 

“You look so much better,” said Linda. “There’s color in them thar cheeks.” 

That’s a good thing, right?

Recovery was more difficult than I’d expected. Although Annie’s grip loosened, she continued to haunt me. When someone complimented me on my weight gain, Annie translated it to, “My you’re getting fat.”  

“Body image takes time to change,” my dietitian assured me during my weekly visits. “All I can do is provide the tools. It’s up to you to use them.” 

Tools? What tools?

One of those so-called tools offered by Dr. Wilson, my psychiatrist, was Risperdal, a drug prescribed to treat such conditions as schizophrenia and bipolar disorder. Mental health experts hoped the antipsychotic might calm the obsessive thoughts of anorexics and bulimics. 

I detested the way it made me feel. Strange. Out of touch with the rest of the world. Afraid of what I didn’t know. 

Dr. Wilson decided Risperdal alone wasn’t doing what it should. Diagnosing me as “mildly bipolar” and being “slightly” ADD, she added Lithium to my daily pill-age. 

My appetite dwindled and my anxiety level skyrocketed. I began to lose weight again but took little pleasure in it. I barely functioned at work. How I stayed on the payroll is beyond me. 

“I’ve never seen such a severe reaction,” said Dr. Wilson. “Clearly you’re allergic.”

My nightmare was far from over. The drugs’ half-lives of a week or two stretched into over a month. The debilitating side effects continued to take their toll, not only on me but on my frazzled husband as well. 

One night it all came to a head. 

“I don’t know what to do for you anymore,” he fumed when I broke down. “Crying won’t help.” 

I sniffed and choked back sobs. “Stop trying to fix me!”

With a sigh, he sank into his recliner and gathered me onto his lap. Tears streamed down his cheeks. “Maybe you need to go back into the hospital.” 

I snuggled against him. His admission of helplessness comforted me. My true recovery began that very night when, together, we learned crying is sometimes the best of all tools.

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One thought on “Rochelle Wisoff-Fields: FIXING A WHOLE”

  1. Reblogged this on d. a. ratliff and commented:

    This powerful and true story comes from Rochelle Wisoff-Fields. I will let her words describe it… “Twenty-three years ago, I fought the final round with Annie—Annie Wrecks Ya. At present, I’m working on a novel based on my experience. “


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